A life Journey

You ever heard about the friend zone? Ya well I am living in that hell. I love her to death and I am glad we can be friends but I want to be so much more. I am just glad she has met someone respectable at least. :(

You know when you first meet someone you usually do some sort of evaluation of their character. The big question is what do you do win that eval? And that is a question I have no answer to for my newest acquaintance

I am laying here just pondering life and I came upon the question of who my best friend is. I can say I do have some good friends but I’m not close enough to anyone to say they are my best fiend and because of that I am aad.

In life we have a few expectations of our selves that are sort of reinforced more by society. For example the need to have that special someone in your life. you can walk around and constantly see people who have found someone and while you may say get a room inside you wish it was someone else telling you that. Also you have the need to find a group. you do it for your self because everyone needs someone they can turn to no matter what. if you don’t have that some one you get to feel the scorn of society. I personally do have these expectations of my self and i have found a group I am pretty comfortable with but i just cant seem to find that someone. when ever i think i do i get a huge slap in the face to bring me back into reality. I have on wish for Christmas and i know it wont come true but that doesn’t stop me from wishing and hoping.

For all the experience parents claim and always saying I know what your going through. Even with all that parents can be so ignorant some times and it really hurts :’(

You know when you have helped out a person though all their ups and downs and when you turn to them you get nothing ):

You know how you see girls always talking about how all guys are dicks? Ya and then when they meat a guy who is nice they just store him away in the “friend” category. And then go out with another ass. All the while that guy is sitting there wishing that he could get out of that friend category and treat her how she needs to be treated :/

We would all like to believe that in life we have a lot of really true and good friends and that we fit in to multiple place but the truth is we all know its awkward we you just stand there and don’t really say anything but I guess we don’t need to fit in to live. :/